Today has been a really really hard day for me. I had been feeling very unhappy at my current job so I started looking for another one. Well, I got it. But I didn't think about the fact that my health insurance would stop and the new one would start in two months.
That wouldn't be a problem if it wasn't for the fact that last week they found a polyp in my uterus wall. Normally, this isn't a huge deal, is more a blessing that they found it even before I started trying for a baby. But for me, whose biggest desire in life is to be a mom, was devastating news- yes, I'm dramatic. Anything related to that, is a big deal. So if I can't schedule the polyp removal before the end of the months, I'm gonna have to wait for two months. (Unless I get COBRA which is $500 dollars a month-which, after lots of crying and thiking, I might do).
So anyway today was my day off and I cried and cried not knowing whether to accept the job or not. Actually I did accept and then asked about insurance... not good. Have you heard of someone with polyps? Have you ever had one? It'd be helpful if you let me know your experience. I want to have a baby so bad that just thinking about not being able to conceive makes me think of doing something crazy.
In the midst of all of this I am really trying to stay focused on God, remembering that He is in control and that every trial is designed to make me stronger. This my friend, is really hard.
But I have been thinking a lot about my true passions, one being, writing, the other one cooking. My husband has been encouraging me to go to culinary school and I am seriously considering it. he more I post my recipes the more passionate I become.
One thing I need to buy though, is a good camera. But hubby told me I should take a photography class before. Because look at the pictures I'm gonna show you, I don't know if the camera is not good or I'm horrible at it:
So yellow! I dressed like this on Sunday for church:
Dress: $12 at Ross
Belt: my mom's
Earrings: (they're pink in case you can't see it!) $5 Forever 21
Necklace: $6 Forever 21. It also has pink details.
I dressed it up with this satin-like jacket I bought at Ross for $7.99, and the shoes that were around $10-15.
See? I'm an amateur photographer, but fear not, there is a time to learn and a time to grow, and if i take this job with less hour, that time might be close!